ZachIsHere

It hasn’t been clicking lately.

That isn’t really fair to say because things have been going well. Been doing a lot of paid photo work with great results. Even with this movement forward there is something missing. I used to shoot all the time. I used to be annoying to people I lived with. I would set up random things and snap away…every angle of my home was canvassed and nothing was safe from that shutter. Now, every now and then I think up something worth shooting around the place and it is generally some big ordeal with varied results. I used to attack the area I lived in. Street corners, alleys, rooftops, there wasn’t anything that was safe. Jaunts around the city still happen and some decent photos come from them but not like they used too.

I remember moving into my first non-dorm place in Springfield, and had the same feeling again when I moved into the “Loren” house with Casey and Thomas. The feeling that anything could happen. The room I was to live in was totally barren. I was on my hands and knees putting together a computer desk with the fan on high blast keeping me cool during the muggy summer. As I slowly got all my stuff put together and made the room “mine” there was excitement building. I was setting up another chapter and anything could happen.

My room in the present time in Kansas City is messy with absolutely no character, I do work at night and sleep late a lot. Everything seems so difficult and labored. I don’t know when that happened. The Zach a few years ago would flip out at some of the projects and gigs I am taking on but the excitement isn’t there. Over thinking and dreaming has plagued me.

Luckily, every day is a chance to change things up. It is time to remember what it was like when I didn’t have the nice camera and had to work harder to get that special photo. I have a string of days off later this week and I going to use them to get some good pictures.

I am already excited!

Below is a picture from my camera phone. The first seeds of me wanting to become a photographer were planted by my father. He mentioned this photo, how he liked it. I passed it off as a silly snapshot but he said that I got it at a special angle showing the lights aligned well. That was the beginning.

I look forward to becoming more active in all the things going on in Kansas City once I get out of this funk. Better times are ahead.